God has a plan...

I want more children...lots of them. But I need to remember that God has a plan for me and my family.

When I was in high school, I told myself (and my parents!) that I was NEVER having kids. To clarify, I said this after watching the "birthing video" my senior year. Then I got married and wanted to become a mommy as soon as possible.  My amazing husband wasn't sure he was ready to "grow up" yet, but I was ready. :) We actually found out we were pregnant early on, but ended up having a miscarriage. That was one of the hardest things that has ever happened to me.  I was depressed and it took awhile for me to be "okay" again.  We kept trying but nothing happened.  Finally my OBGYN sent us to a fertility doctor and I finally got pregnant after 4 years of trying!  Being a mommy to Bryce has been one of the greatest blessings from God.  My life wouldn't be full of as much love and laughter as it is now.  I never expected that Bryce would be an only child.  I figured that since we got pregnant once, we could get pregnant again.  Bryce is almost 5 and a half and she is still an only child.  (That's 10 years of trying on our own!). We have been back to our fertility doctor twice, but we haven't gotten pregnant.  My doctor pretty much told me that In-Vitro is the only chance we have of getting pregnant again.  Artificial insemination was already expensive enough and then we find out we will probably need something A LOT more expensive and it's not even a guarantee.

Bryce is my world and I'm very grateful that God gave me the job of taking care of her while she is on Earth, but I just feel like I have an emptiness in my heart.  I know that my life will be great with Bryce (and her daddy) but I would love for her to have someone to share it with (like her daddy and I did growing up).

I will continue to pray for understanding, patience and acceptance!

Winter Tradition:Carriage ride at Bradley Fair

Daddy joined us this year and we couldn't have asked for better weather! Our black horse's name was Garnett. I love spending time with my family! ❤️

                                                   

                        

Tennis/Splash Camp

Bryce went to a Tennis/Splash Camp to end her summer. She had a blast! She learned how to play tennis, played with water balloons and played on the playground. Not a bad way to end a summer!

4th of July 2013

Riverside Park pancakes and parade!

 

On the eve of Bryce's 5th birthday...

I am just reminiscing on the last 5 years. These have been the best years of my life! I have loved watching my baby girl grow and change in front of my very own eyes. These years have flew by! I've witnessed her first smile, her first laugh, crawling, walking, swim lessons, preschool and t-ball. I've loved every minute and wouldn't change a thing! I am so blessed that God would trust me to be her mommy. 

Up next will be Kindergarten, riding a bike with no training wheels, getting married and more! I can't wait!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYCE REAGAN! I love you with all my heart and am very proud to be called your mommy!

Park Across Wichita #3

Buffalo Park (March 19, 2013):
I grew up playing at Buffalo Park. It was fun to go back and spend quality time with Bryce.

Park Across Wichita #2

Exploration Park (March 18,2013):
Another favorite of ours! It has 3 playgrounds in one and is pretty close!

Park Across Wichita #1

Bryce and I decided to try and play at every Wichita park from Spring Break until school starts. Here we go!

Riverside Park (March 15,2013):
One of our favorite parks, mainly because its right down the street!

Snowday 2013 #1

Today was Bryce and mommy's first snowday for 2013. There was so much snow! We had a mission to make a snow family but the snow was too soft. We decided to walk to Riverside Park instead. We were the first footprints most of the way. So much fun!

Stay tuned for snowday #2 tomorrow!!