God has a plan...

I want more children...lots of them. But I need to remember that God has a plan for me and my family.

When I was in high school, I told myself (and my parents!) that I was NEVER having kids. To clarify, I said this after watching the "birthing video" my senior year. Then I got married and wanted to become a mommy as soon as possible.  My amazing husband wasn't sure he was ready to "grow up" yet, but I was ready. :) We actually found out we were pregnant early on, but ended up having a miscarriage. That was one of the hardest things that has ever happened to me.  I was depressed and it took awhile for me to be "okay" again.  We kept trying but nothing happened.  Finally my OBGYN sent us to a fertility doctor and I finally got pregnant after 4 years of trying!  Being a mommy to Bryce has been one of the greatest blessings from God.  My life wouldn't be full of as much love and laughter as it is now.  I never expected that Bryce would be an only child.  I figured that since we got pregnant once, we could get pregnant again.  Bryce is almost 5 and a half and she is still an only child.  (That's 10 years of trying on our own!). We have been back to our fertility doctor twice, but we haven't gotten pregnant.  My doctor pretty much told me that In-Vitro is the only chance we have of getting pregnant again.  Artificial insemination was already expensive enough and then we find out we will probably need something A LOT more expensive and it's not even a guarantee.

Bryce is my world and I'm very grateful that God gave me the job of taking care of her while she is on Earth, but I just feel like I have an emptiness in my heart.  I know that my life will be great with Bryce (and her daddy) but I would love for her to have someone to share it with (like her daddy and I did growing up).

I will continue to pray for understanding, patience and acceptance!

Winter Tradition:Carriage ride at Bradley Fair

Daddy joined us this year and we couldn't have asked for better weather! Our black horse's name was Garnett. I love spending time with my family! ❤️